[Thursday, Oct. 13, 2005 @ 1:00 a.m.]
[ The Fog Has Lifted!
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I thought I had the potential to acquire someone as a mate of some sort. I was blinded by their attention and their friendliness that I mistook it for something leaning towards intimacy. It's one of those things where you look back and read the red flags that popped up:- Calls you a different name
- Sometimes looks you in the eyes when talking to you
- Body language isn't open to you
- Doesn't make the effort to dress neat and looks dishevelled
- Gives you a pity hug when they drive you home
- Gives you a weird look as if they're finally clued in on you.
I fee like such an idiot. I was on the bus, coming from work today when this fell into my thinking. I'd also gotten a double pass for a movie tomorrow and thought of inviting him. When I got his voicemail, immediately I assumed the worst and thought he was screening his messages. I did put my info in his phone with my picture, since he has a cameraphone handy. I always feel like a huge ass whenever I realize someone doesn't notice me. I can bet money on this too. I won't sleep well tonight either. I didn't bother having my cellphone on me, in case he calls, but I know he won't, or he will to say he can't. I don't know what these last couple of days have been, but at least we saw, In Her Shoes
While Soaking in Lavendar... - Saturday, Apr. 06, 2019 He Reminded Me of An Incident Years Ago - Monday, Feb. 04, 2019 My Rose-Coloured Glasses are Smashed & I Don’t Want Them Anymore - Sunday, Feb. 03, 2019 It’s Been Awhile - Saturday, Feb. 02, 2019 I Never Needed You. - Thursday, Nov. 27, 2014
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