I use to keep an actor's diary, one that kept my background extra jobs and auditions, but I can't find it. My last audition was with Stuart Aikins, and he's suppose to be tough! There was one actor who saw him, then was told by his agent not to see him for 2 years! I auditioned for him around August or September, and saw him again a few weeks later, and that was my best one! Now, I'm here in Winnipeg, resting from the struggling-actor bit before I head out again. I have tons of doubts, as most people struggling with their goals do. Doubt is torture, as Natalie Goldberg said in her book Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within. I've got to get my ass in gear, soon, before I'm 40 and reflecting on my wasted 30's. I've finally got my headshots done, but they're lying in my room, in an envelope, waiting to be sent out then thrown in the trash by some casting director/agent. Musten't doubt myself.

Winners do what losers won't do, is what Dr. Phil said, eventhough I never watch his show. He was on Jay Leno a while back, and I think that's where he said it.