I had my scene from "Thelma & Louise", plus the whole script from, "Agnes of God", and it feels so good to bite into a role, savor the morsel, and feel it go down your throat. Coldly reading the scene in front of everyone, I was fumbling, but definitely not towards exstacy. The more times we did it. the stronger my acting muscle felt. I feel more motivated when surrounded by other actors. We get to talk about our craft, movies, the business aspects and we feel alive. Everyday life is so uninspiring. What do I look forward to when I wake up? Finding a beige job. Yeah, beige. Not an exciting job full of colors that are absolute eye-candy, not a black and white job that adds fulfillment to those in need, but a job that leaves you bored and cold. A job where you don't care that you could get fired, but can't quit because then you feel like a quitter: retail, restaurant, door-to-door, all these jobs I've had and wanted to scream because they'd sapped my desire to work. Work is what you do for others, Art is what you do for yourself. I rarely do Art but always do work. Such a dirty four-letter word. The only time acting feels like work is when I'm in a classroom, but other than that, when I get the chance, when I'm in a play or a short film, the word work doesn't occur to me.