Whenever mom and I are headed back home on a Saturday, we always end up at my younger brother's place; he has a new computer, desk and leather chair taking up his unused dining area. His computer could eat my mom's as a snack then crap it out later.

Getting home, I amused myself with the computer, again, and when I checked my email; Dred had e-mailed back with blessings! She was also mentioning a film she was in, "Venus Boys", that came out last year at the Out On Screen Film Festival in Vancouver, which I got to open in drag! Maybe I should tell her that. Then again, that's the most glory I've achieved. It was glorious though, and I may be trampling and lip-syncing upon the stage when I go to visit in a couple of weeks. Maybe they'll beg me to stay, and I'll phone my family to tell them that I'm never coming back to Winnipeg, ever again!

We'll see.

First, I have to become an adult and take better care of myself. I ended up in the living conditions I did because I wasn't working the job thing right. I was a struggling actor, but I fumbled my own management. I can't seem to take care of myself. I'm watching "Sex & The City", and 3 of the 4 ladies are my age, with their lives together, despite their sex/love lives.

I've been watching too much of those DVD's, all 4 seasons them, and it's seeping into my thinking and my self image.