Speaking of massages, one of the actresses was stressed out and asked, "Chuffnutt, can you give me a backrub?" I was on my feet and all over her back in a half second, squeezing moans and groans out of her. I jokingly/seriously said to the other actor nearby, "I love making women moan!" while making silly putty out of her. I don't know if he read into it or not, but he laughed, nervously. I can't believe I said that outloud. I'm standing there, making her emote at the touch of my wringing hands and thinking this is the most action I've had in a long time!

One of the other actors loves using the word faggot for the past month. At the same time, there was another theatre person present sitting in on our rehearsal, who has a "partner" he's moving with to Ontario. His presence was absent moments later when that ugly word was used. I knew a lesbian friend who used the word fag now and then, but not with so much venom supporting it like the way he uses it. It hasn't provoked me to take action and point a nasty finger at him or glare nastily, but it's starting to bug me. He's the actor who memorized his lines the earliest while I'm still struggling with mine. I have shows where I get all of mine down and others where I'm still fumbling during the run of the show. At least I plugged away during yesterday's rehearsal, forgoing lines and ad-libbing. The other actor, who took my verbal abuse in the scene, was ipmpressed with my aggressive delivery towards him. He's a funny comedic actor, but his personality offstage seems more serious, which is interesting. Working with someone, and socializing with someone are two different things. People are so complexed and multi-faceted.