I got off this around 1:30am and only slept for 3 hours, maybe. As sleepy and groggy as I was, I'm addicted to the internet. If only it would work faster. If only I had my own laptop. I know that as brand new to this job I am, that I'll be barked at for doing things wrong. I can't complain because I'll be told countless times old cliches that I myself haven't imposed on other hapless trainees. I hate starting new jobs because of the fumbling around. I'm slow to start, but once I get familiar with a job, I flow better. I keep expecting to get fired, knowing that it'll be a bigger disappointment to my family than to myself. Getting fired sucks, but when it's a job that you have no career aspirations for, it's a very small loss. If I were in a movie/play/whatever and I got fired, that would be heartbreaking for sure. I'd take it personally, whereas a 'bread'n'butter job' would be considered a speedbump in my career path. I even fantasized about working at Starbucks. Not applying there, but actually working there. I passed through the mall, passed by Starbucks and figured they had it easier, that there was less sweat dripping on their floors than ours. I'm hating my job already, just tolerating the condescension, told countless times about what to do instead of what I've been doing wrong. My mantra is I'm only a trainee, mistakes are inevitable, but that's getting drowned out by visions of strangling someone half my age if I'm told I'm suppose to Biggie-Size their meal! I'm surprised I haven't had nightmares, yet. I may be there another 10 years, I may be there a month: I'd better not end my life wearing the same uniform! Everyone has jobs they don't like, has a slump in their lives where they're taking unlikely jobs they swore they'd never take. One actor/comedian told me that he had to be dragged kicking and screaming into selling insurance. It's tolerable.