I can't sleep. I'm wired on 2 cups of coffee I drank a mere few hours ago, coupled with 2 glasses of coke, so the caffeine is not going away. It doesn't matter anyway, since I have trouble sleeping. I was watching this movie called, Strange Fits of Passion, and the lead girl is going through figuring out her sexual identity: that was me, until she has this fantasy, lying in bed, masterbating over a woman, 2 straight guys and a gay friend of hers: she says she's not gay! Argh! I was disappointed with her for not being like me, and I thought that maybe I wasn't gay. She throws away her virginity to some guy, and when he realizes that he's not a sexual person, she agrees and feels the same way. I can't say I'm sex on legs or anything, but I don't feel anything lately. I'm frustrated with everything: sex, love, unemployment, just whatever. Stupid PMS! I can't wait to bleed and get it over with. Even the actor's group I went to seems to have lost its spirit. Nobody really feels it's going anywhere, like a relationship that's on the rocks. Everything sucks. I'm not even frustrated enough to scream at someone. I don't want to do anything. I feel blah. Hopefully the caffeine will pass, and I'll have a better perspective on things. Then again, maybe I won't. Blah. While Soaking in Lavendar... - Saturday, Apr. 06, 2019 He Reminded Me of An Incident Years Ago - Monday, Feb. 04, 2019 My Rose-Coloured Glasses are Smashed & I Don’t Want Them Anymore - Sunday, Feb. 03, 2019 It’s Been Awhile - Saturday, Feb. 02, 2019 I Never Needed You. - Thursday, Nov. 27, 2014
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