[Friday, Apr. 07, 2006 @ 9:47 a.m.]
[ Spring Is Looking Better ]

My mom was cleaning out her computer of files and happened upon my porn section. I was right there at the discovery too. My heart was racing and I didn't even explain myself, nor did she question me. Hey mom, I haven't been with a woman in years and the one man I played with only adds to the frustration: I need an outlet!

Speaking of which, I got asked out on a date...by another guy! He's cool, another vegan/atheist too, but I'm not interested in gettin' it on with him. I don't want another man in me! I don't want more added frustration.

Speaking of that, I can't seem to get together with my gal on the internet either. She couldn't do today nor tomorrow. Even if we did hang out more, what'll come of it? I don't want to have too much invested, but I want to chill out about all this, to relenquish control of how to feel and how to steer this to my advantage. Can't be manipulative. I hate when other people do that so I won't do that with others. "Treat others how you want to be treated". Not exactly a bible quote, but hey, it's legit.

I've been auditioning and getting a callback here and there. This month is looking up so far, but it ain't over yet.


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