Now I know why.

It's not physical, but emotional.

I'm holding back my feelings about this guy and they want to come out. I see him, think of him and I fear that anything I say or do will scare him off. I just want to say what's on my mind to him and be done with it. I hate feeling like this. He's making me sick! I text messaged him yesterday and he didn't respond. Sometimes he gets it right away but this is only the second time he hasn't. I want to see some plays today and I don't know if I want him to come along with me or not. He's got a cousin or nephew in town so I don't know what he's going to do with that. If I cut my losses, I'll feel destroyed again, and this is what I didn't want, this is why I didn't want sex at all. Just thinking about him right now is making me worst. I can feel the nausea coming over me and the headache beginning to start. I have to say something. It's building up too much. At the same time, I want him again.