You look at porn and it's too unrealistic. There aren't any women I'd want if I'm depending on these fantasies. In everyday life, none compare, even to myself, making me feel more inadequate than I usually do.

After awhile, it's all eye-candy, even Daniel Craig! Yeah, he's my new male eye-candy over George Clooney. You go for so long without any sexual activity or you're so out of touch with what a real relationship is, that so many different stimuli gets in just to keep your pulse going. I just think he's beautiful! I could sit in my room and watch Casino Royale all day, then if I get tired of that, pop in Layer Cake and Tomb Raider. This is driving me crazy too! I don't plan on acting on these feelings anyway. I'm so in the closet about my lesbo and hetero feelings I'm going to burst! It's only a celebrity crush anyway. I'm sure there are other lesbians who have crushes on men, right? I mean, a gay/lesbian is more likely to admit to an attraction of the opposite sex than a straight person will of the same sex. That's been my observation. I've had a couple of lesbian friends admit to having celebrity crushes on Antonio Banderas or Usher. Hell, I've had sex with men before, it's not like it would be foreign or that I don't think about what it would be like. The reality would be too disappointing anyway, plus when would I ever get the chance to get laid by a famous person at this point in my life? Huh? I may never be a regular working actor, so the chances would be nil unless I was viewed as a groupie or a mere fan; that would be humiliating.